Bare with me. I'm all over the place on this. Very little sleep. I was going to rework it but it's how I'm feeling at the moment so there ya go. lol
I've spent a great deal of the last 8 years angry and hurt due to a dysfunctional relationship I was in. Always moody, down and depressed. Previous to that there were many, many years of depression. A girl doesn't get to almost 500 pounds loving herself and life. I've spent most of my life in a cocoon. Letting very little people in until I immersed myself into the Internet around 2002. I've found so many loving and understanding people over the years. Some of you I've stuck to like glue other's have fallen to the way side a bit but I've loved them all in one way or another. They've embraced me, consoled me, laughed both with me and at me on occasion. Have shared some devastating and painful moments with me. They've allowed me to talk about myself incessantly. I like that part. lol Most importantly, they've allowed me into their lives. Made me feel sociable when I'm really not. Made me feel truly blessed and loved.
I hope the new year brings all of you many blessings, joy and peace of mind.
The 1st day of the year. What am I going to do for myself? You got it. Get my fat ass to the gym! lol I haven't been in a month. All wrapped up in my hurt feelings on how the breakup happened. I had a moment of sadness at midnight not having a significant other anymore shedding some tears. Then my friend Monica wrote this to me on Facebook. Happy New Year beautiful!!! May God fill you with His blessings and everlasting love N peace ♥. It was what I needed to read. God did bless me by taking me out of the situation I was in. That move alone brought about some peace and showed me that He will love and care for me even when I'm not doing it for myself. Also a reminder that I better start loving myself more. No more dwelling on the past. It's time for action.
Sistah girl is ready to for change!
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