It's December 30th, almost that time to claim what you want to do for the New Year. Doesn't it feel weird how ready you feel the closer you get to the 1st. You have all the latest books you're going to read for motivation. But you never really get around to it. You get your binder ready so that you can log your meals and exercise. You're usually done with journaling by the 3rd week of January. "I'm going to eat healthier." Um, til maybe January 15th. "I'm going to exercise regularly." Sure, by February 1st you've done 20 min of exercise once per week. And don't get me started about joining a gym. We all know how that ends up. lol It's getting old. I know when you get this big you need a plan. But i'm all planned out right now. I'm taking it one day at a time. One meal at a time. So, no big dreaded "RESOLUTIONS" speech from me this year.
Something that is exciting however is that I joined a contest. 10 very lucky winners are going to have the opportunity to attend the Biggest Loser Fitness Ranch in Malibu for 4 weeks. I submitted my video and now the nail biting begins. I must have made at least 12 videos. I wasn't sure what to share, what emotions to share. Should I share something that will get me crying? Should I use my Sarcasm Super Power and make them laugh? I think I found middle ground. No tears were shed and I didn't say something to offend anyone. My Superpower has been known to backfire in the past and send people crying from the room. lol
I hope i'm able to make it. I can really use it right now. Time away to just work on myself. I spend so much of my life depressed or and helping others. It's time to reshuffle my priorities and put Ms Q as number one.
Wish me luck! And Vote for me!
https://apps.facebook.com/contestshq/contests/160284/voteable_entries/40736895
Let's get down to the Fat Roller Coaster now. My heaviest recorded weight was 490 lbs. I'm sure I tipped the scale at 500 at one point. My current weight is 412 pounds. Wait! Hold your applause! It's taking me 8 years now to get to this point. That's a whole lot of back and forth. My lowest point was 388 before I lost my mojo and gave up yet again. 5 or 6 weeks ago I was at 442. My world was flipped upside down and i'm just not eating very much these days. Good for the scale bad for my body. Not eating is not a good way to do this. I know that. Every so often I can feel my fat going into starvation mode and eating itself my gut starts making some of the weirdest noises. I usually get up and feed myself something at that time.
With or without that Fitness ranch I need to figure out a healthy way to get this fat off my body.
Tune in next time.
